Yep! I'm pregnant!!!
I just skimmed over my last entry. Things seemed pretty shitty then.... but I had a consultation with my doctor in July and it turns out, someone had donated some injections which my doctor in turn donated to me. Paying for the Clomid, the trigger shot, and the progesterone suppositories took a chunk out of us but we still saved SO much money and IT WORKED!!! I was so freakin terrified of the shots but the needle was so tiny I barely felt a thing. I had Alicia give me my first one but when I realized how NOT so bad they were, I had Fuzz give me the rest, including the trigger shot. I've also been taking progesterone suppositories twice daily which SUCK but I think they're helping!
I got my BFP the day before my period was due. (that's the top test in the picture - very faint. I hate First Response tests! Grrr) That was on Monday the 4th - Labor Day. Kylie was still in town so I was able to tell her in person. Anyway, I had my first blood test that Friday and my levels were 243 - more than 100 over the average for being 17dpo! I had a second blood test the following Friday (as in, a couple of days ago) and my levels were 3925. Again, higher than the average! (It's NOT twins though!! lol) I'm having an ultrasound on Wednesday. The nurse wanted me to come in on Thursday or Friday so that they could see the heartbeat, but Fuzz is off on Wednesday and I have no classes on Wednesday so that works better for us. The nurse just told me that that was fine but if they can't see the heartbeat that day, I'll have to come the following week for another ultrasound. Fine by me! I don't mind getting a free extra look at my little tator tot. :D
So far we've only told Alicia (cuz she helped with the injections), Becky (because she's on all of the same forums I'm on), Kylie (because she was here), and Angela (who got it out of me by accident). I really didn't want to tell Angela for a while. She called off her wedding a month before the date because Clint is a fucking asshole. The 3rd was supposed to be her wedding day which is why I didn't test that day. I didn't want to tell her for two reasons. One, I wanted to let her get through her own stuff. That time was about her, not me or anyone else. Secondly, I'm due on Clint's birthday. YUCK. But when she found out, she was thrilled. She said she was feeling fine about everything and that she's glad she has something good to focus on on May 15th. So, I guess it all worked out.
We still haven't told any family. I sure did not forget the shit my mother pulled after my miscarraige. However, these damn hormones are starting to soften me up. At first I wanted to wait until Christmas then I said, no that's too far away, so Thanksgiving. Then I figured it would probably end up being more like early November. Then Fuzz said, what about in october when his parents come into town. But today I figured, why not just tell my parents on my birthday. I'll be nearly 8 weeks along and we'll all be together, out to dinner. It'll be before my first OB appointment, but after my ultrasound. So if everything looks good, I think I might tell them then. It's just too hard not to when I see them every week. I think we'll wait to tell Fuzz's parents until October though. Nothing personal, it would just be nicer to tell them in person and the temptation to spill the beans isnt there since they now live in Missouri.
I've already bought some things for our little one. LOL... I shouldn't, but my blood test was so good and everyone and their mother is telling me what a good feeling they have about all of this - knock on wood - that I just felt compelled to celebrate by buying some bottles on clearance and some cute onesies. :D I'm really excited. For a couple of weeks, I was just plain scared but now I'm so excited and happy! I feel so good, I'm just thirsty and pee a lot and get heartburn here and there. the cramps are there occasionally but they are just uncomfortable, not painful. I just hope with all of my heart that this baby sticks. I already love him or her SO much, I can't bear losing this one.
Enough of that kind of talk, lol. School is going pretty well so far, although I've missed a couple of classes due to feeling sick or feeling too tired. Thsi baby sucks a lot out of me. ;) In a few weeks, I'll let my professors know so that maybe they'll be a little lenient, or at least understanding. I just have to maintain C's though, which I could probably do in my sleep. I always shoot for A's and I have a feeling I'll be getting straight B's this semester, but its' good enough!!
Well I'm off to go watch a movie and veg until my husband gets home. Seeya! :D
